I’m a failure. (but it’s okay)

This week I failed to get a job I really wanted.

This job would have had me dealing with a companies social media accounts, photography, a YouTube channel, online analytics and involved me being creative in the ways I usually am on a daily basis. Except this time, getting paid. Failing to get this job has broken my heart and torn me apart, and that’s fine. 

Here’s the thing about failure, it’s something you earn. It’s a badge you gain by trying, and it’s a very important badge. It’s a symbol of honour not a symbol of disgrace. I would rather be known for trying to do the things I wanted and failing than not trying at all. 

“I know how failure tastes, I drink it straight from the carton. I always keep a gallon in the fridge at my apartment to remind me how it feels to drop the ball-” – Watsky | 4AM Monday.

Failure isn’t something you should aim for, we all know that. It’s just a feeling we have to recongnise feels awful, but the quicker we recognise it as a symbol of trying the quicker we can get back up and carry on doing the things we want to.

I have been out of university a year and I have had many successes. I got a job, paid off my debt, moved out, made wonderful friends and even travelled.

Yet, also had many failures, I got back into debt (not as bad), didn’t save as much as I wanted and failed some job interviews.

“I messed up tonight, I lost another fight. I still mess up but I’ll just start again. I keep falling down, I keep on hitting the ground. I always get up now to see what’s next.” – Shakira | Try Everything

Staying determined is hard and isn’t something that comes easy, it comes with days where you’ll scream, cry and yes, even give up. 

Let yourself have those days and think: “I’ll be fine tomorrow or next week. This is just a phase and there is a better day coming.” 

It’s not easy, staying positive takes a lot of practise but talking to others is a great push forward for this or even learning to self soothe by blocking those bad thoughts is an amazing tool to keep pushing yourself forward.